Wow, first entry in almost 4 months but I'm here and although absolutely nothing truly noteworthy to update with, I still felt I should mark my visit by posting something!
I'm currently a busy student, in training for my dream career and I often am surprised I've not met myself coming back but I'm loving it, I was born to do this. My own little family are growing up way too fast, my oldest is going to secondary school next year - I simply can't believe it, he'll always be my baby regardless of course.
Fin is 9 months old and his daddies tell me he is crawling and trying to stand up these days, he's hitting all milestones, doing everything he should be doing and has a better social life than me. His daddies and I keep in touch, not perhaps as much as we once did but I think the current set up suits us all for the most part. We've decided there will be no sibling project with my involvement after all, various reasons but there's no drama about it as far as I'm aware.
Will this be the end of my surrogacy story? Who really knows is the honest answer. I've made lots of friends over the years, there are a lot of lovely and very deserving IPs who are still searching for that special lady and I, or rather my uterus, is free and potentially still pretty awesome at baking babies for others so perhaps. Maybe. I need to consider the flipside - the drama, the worries, the what ifs, the potential pitfalls to both my head, health and my heart but also I'm not sure I have the time or energy to commit to all that surrogacy entails once again, it can be a long year at the very least. My 2 journeys so far have been very draining, for a variety of reasons and even if 3rd time lucky - can I really go through it all again? I really don't know.
For now I keep my head down and I sleep, eat, study, parent, study, rinse and repeat but I wouldn't have it any other way.
